Camping here we come!

We are going camping on Sunday and we are about as excited as 6 year olds going to Disney. You would think that we never get to go anywhere or do anything but the excitement in waiting is half the fun, right? The weather is not looking very hopeful for our trip but I am trying to convince myself that camping in the rain is equally as fun as camping in sunny 80 degree weather... :/ We will see how that goes...

We went to a rodeo last night with the Weatherwaxes. That was new and different. We real cowboys riding real bulls. For whatever reason it always seemed like some fantasy to me but evidentally the world has not been lying and it really does happen...weird.

They call it a sport. I see it as attempts at suicide...maybe thats extreme. But one guy did get trampled and taken away on a stretcher...I chuckled and wanted to be like "well, duh!". But none-the-less I still hope he is ok.

Tonight we are going out to good old "camp" to see some friends from Faith. Camp is...well to be honest I really don't know I have never been. But its a church thing I suppose. We are excited to see friends and be fed by a much missed mom from Lansing.

Our air doesn't really work and it is rather hot...but I still made mac and cheese for lunch and it was still amazing...

I found the bottom of our laundry basket today and that was a huge accomplishment...I thought for sure it was gone but to my surprise once I washed all of the clothes (did I say all? Because I meant ALL) there was the bottom of the basket smiling back at me :)I wanted to give myself a round of applause since this may the first time it has happened but I was too embarrassed...I didn't want Mark to think I had lost (although it is possible that he might already think that).

Well thats all for now in the exciting life of Mark and Jenny...maybe Ill be back before vaca and well maybe not.

My heart...

I long for your love to swirl around me
I long for your life and will for me
I long to make a difference for you
I long to see lives changed
I long to see people in surrender to you
I long to see tears running down the faces of those you love
I long to hear voices endlessly lifting praise to you
I long to see an urgency in saving the lost
I long to see us giving up everything in order to gain everything
I long for a world where we live as we actually are: Free
I long for you Jesus
I long for your power
I long for your redemption
I long for you forgiveness
I long for YOUR KINGDOM TO COME
I long for us to love you and only you!


I need you Jesus, I need you…

A day off...

I was so excited all week because I had today off completely from everything. Mark is gone all day, I got most of the cleaning done and I was hoping to just lay out at the pool all day. But I awoke this morning to no sun. I am pretty sad. Although I have to admit I am enjoying the quiet and peacefulness of being all alone with nothing to do. Life has been so crazy and busy lately that I feel somewhat out of place not having anything going on.

Tomorrow we have our first lifegoup meeting that I am leading. I am really excited about it. There are some great girls in the group and I hope that we become even close through the summer.

Mark and I are leaving to go camping next week. We are going to camp in Coldwater for 5 days and then go to Cinncinatti and see his family and go to a wedding. I am really excited!! Im so excited to go away just me and my husband and enjoy a relaxing break outside! Yay! There is a lot of work to do though before we go!

Procrastination..

I came to Panera Bread because I have a lot of things that need to get done before I go to work at 7. But naturally I get here and don't feel like doing ANYTHING! I want to go home and take a nap instead. Last week we were sick and not home and busy and so everything feels very behind but catching up sounds like no fun...

Sometimes it is just hard...

The last few days have been rough for me..I have been feeling pretty awful (attack of the cold sores AGAIN). I know it is because i have been working a lot and not sleeping a lot and my body just can't handle it. It is so easy for me when I don't feel good to emotionally get really down as well. I really struggle not get depressed when I am sick. It is really good to see the sun today. I feel like though getting sick is just the end of God teaching me something really important. The last few weeks I have had to rely on Him so much. I have just felt tired and warn out or just straight up not wanting to do the things that have to be done and instead of complaining (bible says to not complain about anything) I have been trying so hard to just trust God and lean on him and I cannot even explain how much easier and more fun these tough weeks have been because I looked to Jesus.

He is my hope, peace, joy and salvation. I have no idea how I made it 18 years without him. But what I do know is that I would never ever go back. He is my everything.

Why we don't have a television...

We have been staying with some friends kids while they are out of town this weekend. It has been fun as always but one thing that I always get excited about is that they have tv with cable. We have been here since Friday. Now I had a really long week last week and had the whole weekend off with no plans and was not feeling well at all so that plays into this a little. But I just realized that I have spent the whole entire weekend watching TV. I feel like I have been sucked into countless episodes of Law and Order.

I was just in the bathroom (I always have profound thoughts while visiting this room) and I realized that my praying and bible reading has been overtaken by the TV. I realized I have not worked out and I have pretty much done nothing because of the tv. Now I know this a lack of self control and that chances are I could have a tv and I would not spend every waking minute watching it but I suddenly miss the silence. I would rather not have to choose to watch tv or do something productive. I really appreciate it not being a option.

These are just my random realizations of why we do not have a tv. I do not think TVs or bad nor do I think those who have them should not. Just for me personally its not such a good thing. **disclaimer**

"Buy the truth" (Mark)

I just read this: "Buy the truth and do not sell it; get wisdom, discipline, and understanding." This was shortly after the author encouraged his son to be careful not to overwork himself for the sake of riches and gain.

Basically, this author has seen and done it all, and he's drawn the conclusion that very few things are 'worth it.' From a guy with this perspective, I think it's worth noting that he says "Buy the truth," and especially "do not sell it." Truth is worth the price to buy, and so valuable that once you have it, you should never, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, EVER sell it (yes, that was a "Martian Child" reference).

This poses the question, what does it mean to "buy truth?" I think for me right now, it means pay whatever price is necessary to gain 1) wisdom, 2) discipline, and 3) understanding. As a person in a situation that makes me feel like I lack all 3, I can see how valuable these things are. I pray to God that He would help me grow in this way.

Just thought I'd share what's on my mind. When so many things are vying for my time, it's just nice to hear what's important from someone who knows what they're talking about.